Changes

Oh how much can change in a year. A year ago I was: unemployed, dating someone, and wondering what to do with my bachelors’ degree. Today I am: working full time in a leadership position, single, and gearing up to move to the United Kingdom for grad school. This entire year has been a whirlwind of changes, and while I am mostly caught up to pace, I am insanely terrified of what will come next.

I dislike change, always have. I’ve also learned to be okay with change- to a certain extent. But, uprooting my life for two years scares me so much that I can’t even envision what this next chapter looks like, and I have a very active imagination so envisioning events comes easily for me. I suppose that if I’m being fair to myself: I couldn’t have pictured my life now a year ago either. I worked it into my affirmations every night though, but I hadn’t stopped to reflect about that until this moment. How wild is that? Note to self: blog about affirmations and manifestation.

As of today I have 19 days until my flight departs from San Francisco to London, and meanwhile I am sad over a boy, stressed over my job, and anxious about moving. I’m sure that in a year none of this will matter again; but for now, it’s all I can think about. I’m surrounded by people who are so excited for me and meanwhile I don’t think I’ve been excited since I received the acceptance email back in March. Definitely something worth exploring there for me. Is anyone else going through any major life changes at this time? How are you coping with it all?

xo